What A Rush

I was lonely & broken

Large holes fully ripened in my brain

With cruel thoughts eating

& tearing away at it

While I sat there & let it happen

Because, really, what could I do?

When I didn't follow my intuition

Like I was told

& as I sat there on that rainy park bench

You came in like a fluid dream

A heavy breath after a marathon

Pulling me in & kissing my forehead

While I watched as those cruel thoughts

Scurried away like frightened spiders

& a warm wind blew

& a blinding light shone from the Heavens

The rain became light flowers

Falling gracefully to the ground

Everything became a movie in slow motion

& you smiled, reaching for my hand

& the touch of your skin on mine

was electrifying

Sparkling, dazzling, warming

& at that moment I noticed his pale blue eyes

Reflecting mine when I smiled

Then my face cracked like dry clay

From a thousand years of sitting still

I shed from my skin

Stepping out of it like an animal in the wild

I was breaking free one second at a time

& what a glorious feeling it was

However, there are no words

To properly thank you

But I do, thank you

Truly

And the Truth Was Like the Sun

I regret saying the words

"you're like a brother to me

nothing more"

Because now I realize I was lying

I was simply blinded by the truth

That was laid down in front of me

& after all those months

That cloudiness faded away

& the truth was like the sun

The answer shining brightly

But the final meaning of it

Burning & blistering from such a delay

& now, those scars are the only trait I have

You have moved on

Oh, I bet she's beautiful

Truly one in a million

That one person who you always think of

& absentmindedly smile

That one person who is the last thing

On your mind before you fall asleep

Yes, I'm sure she's your everything

Everything I had the chance to be

But ignored it like a small scrape

That lead to a killer infection

I feel so foolish & I'm very sorry

For only just now realizing

That you're the only one for me

& I do wish I was that one person

You always thought about

Just before you close those brown eyes

& drift to sleep

It Was All Yellow

& than
Life just sort of hits you
It's completely unexpected too
Like a...WHAM
A hard blow to the chest
Or a loud scream in your sleep
When all you needed it to do
Was creep up on you slowly
Give you little hints
So you were prepared
But...if life were like that
We'd probably never
Make the choices we do
Because we'd know how they'd turn out
& nobody wants to see
An already planned map of their life
We all want to feel rebellious
Just once
Want to feel that total responsibility
Of wrong doing
Because we don't care what people think
Even though we're actual chicken shits
On the inside
We all want to feel that love & longing
For someone
Even if their love ends up being
For someone else
& we all want friendship & trust
Even if our friend leaves us the next day
But like I said...
Life just comes right at you
From a foggy distance, of course
Without sound of warning
Like a lightning bolt before thunder
In what seems
The worst moment possible
In a time when you really
Wish it wouldn't
At a time when reality is finally
Seperated from chaos
& distortion in the mind

The Saving of the Broken Princess

Well I touched & I was scarred
But you healed those burning wounds
With the touch of your frozen fingertips
& I could feel your strength
As you held me up
& showed me the world
You led me through those secret passages
While we ran
Hand in hand
Your eyes glinting with sunlight
Your laughter like a chorus of bells
& I smiled at you
As we roamed through gardens
& drank from silver waterfalls
The Seperation Of Souls
Would never meet our strong bind
I will hold onto this day
I will let you have all I have
You tore me away from darkness
& I will forever be thankful
I'm crazy for you, Liam
& I just thought you should know