What A Rush

I was lonely & broken

Large holes fully ripened in my brain

With cruel thoughts eating

& tearing away at it

While I sat there & let it happen

Because, really, what could I do?

When I didn't follow my intuition

Like I was told

& as I sat there on that rainy park bench

You came in like a fluid dream

A heavy breath after a marathon

Pulling me in & kissing my forehead

While I watched as those cruel thoughts

Scurried away like frightened spiders

& a warm wind blew

& a blinding light shone from the Heavens

The rain became light flowers

Falling gracefully to the ground

Everything became a movie in slow motion

& you smiled, reaching for my hand

& the touch of your skin on mine

was electrifying

Sparkling, dazzling, warming

& at that moment I noticed his pale blue eyes

Reflecting mine when I smiled

Then my face cracked like dry clay

From a thousand years of sitting still

I shed from my skin

Stepping out of it like an animal in the wild

I was breaking free one second at a time

& what a glorious feeling it was

However, there are no words

To properly thank you

But I do, thank you

Truly

And the Truth Was Like the Sun

I regret saying the words

"you're like a brother to me

nothing more"

Because now I realize I was lying

I was simply blinded by the truth

That was laid down in front of me

& after all those months

That cloudiness faded away

& the truth was like the sun

The answer shining brightly

But the final meaning of it

Burning & blistering from such a delay

& now, those scars are the only trait I have

You have moved on

Oh, I bet she's beautiful

Truly one in a million

That one person who you always think of

& absentmindedly smile

That one person who is the last thing

On your mind before you fall asleep

Yes, I'm sure she's your everything

Everything I had the chance to be

But ignored it like a small scrape

That lead to a killer infection

I feel so foolish & I'm very sorry

For only just now realizing

That you're the only one for me

& I do wish I was that one person

You always thought about

Just before you close those brown eyes

& drift to sleep

It Was All Yellow

& than
Life just sort of hits you
It's completely unexpected too
Like a...WHAM
A hard blow to the chest
Or a loud scream in your sleep
When all you needed it to do
Was creep up on you slowly
Give you little hints
So you were prepared
But...if life were like that
We'd probably never
Make the choices we do
Because we'd know how they'd turn out
& nobody wants to see
An already planned map of their life
We all want to feel rebellious
Just once
Want to feel that total responsibility
Of wrong doing
Because we don't care what people think
Even though we're actual chicken shits
On the inside
We all want to feel that love & longing
For someone
Even if their love ends up being
For someone else
& we all want friendship & trust
Even if our friend leaves us the next day
But like I said...
Life just comes right at you
From a foggy distance, of course
Without sound of warning
Like a lightning bolt before thunder
In what seems
The worst moment possible
In a time when you really
Wish it wouldn't
At a time when reality is finally
Seperated from chaos
& distortion in the mind

The Saving of the Broken Princess

Well I touched & I was scarred
But you healed those burning wounds
With the touch of your frozen fingertips
& I could feel your strength
As you held me up
& showed me the world
You led me through those secret passages
While we ran
Hand in hand
Your eyes glinting with sunlight
Your laughter like a chorus of bells
& I smiled at you
As we roamed through gardens
& drank from silver waterfalls
The Seperation Of Souls
Would never meet our strong bind
I will hold onto this day
I will let you have all I have
You tore me away from darkness
& I will forever be thankful
I'm crazy for you, Liam
& I just thought you should know

Nicest Thing

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing i've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something
I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason
You were in the world
I wish my smile
Was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed
Was your favourite kind of style
I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanted to know
What I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face
When we first met
I wish you had a favourite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew
When I said two sugars
Actually, I meant three
And I wish that without me
Your heart would break
I wish that without me
You'd be spending
The rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me
You couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind
Before you went to sleep
All I know is you're the nicest thing
I've ever seen
And I wish we could see
If we could be something

- Kate Nash

To My Best Friend

Well I can't believe my eyes right now
And I can't trust this feeling
You've forgotten all about us
You've forgotten all about me
Was I never there when you were down?
Was I invisible the times we laughed?
And all those days we were together
I feel as if you don't remember
Let's go back, far back now
To when things were just so simple
Let's breathe in the innocence we once had
How we've forgotten those silly days
You tell me you've let go, finally matured
But what you call "maturing"
I call "cowardly"
Days were so easy, how they'd come and pass
I trusted you so much
Put my faith deep in your palms
Well I guess I was mistaken
Cause nobody seems to tell the truth anymore
Did we realize it when we were 12?
That in the years to come
We'd be filled with such grief?
Well I feel so low, I can't feel anything at all
I can see your pain
You're avoiding the facts
You're shying away from me
You dislike me, no, hate
It's the only word to perfectly describe us
What a strong word it is
That we increasingly built without knowledge
We never thought we'd endure this emotion
But who were we to second-guess nature's plan?
And I'm so indigent
But you might refer to it as greedy
I just need our friendship
I want this stress to disappear
So this water fills my eyes
And this silence breaks the skin
That kept me so together
"What beautiful marks, such lovely tears
They've made you stronger," they say
But all I see is regret
And all I feel is remorse

Through the Eyes of a Stranger

With a smile on her face
She can achieve what she desires
I know that you despise her
The girl who has it all
The perfect hair, the perfect eyes
An angelic voice
With tears like rain in a desert
Impossible
But when they come, they come
And they pour
And the stream
And they leave their mark
But only for a while, just a simple amount of seconds
For if the rain were daily
And the land was always wet
It wouldn't be called a desert, now would it?
And if the tears weren't properly hidden
And the frown permanent mark
She wouldn't be called perfect, now would she?
So listen to her, listen to the words she does not say
Hear her silent pleas and cries
Because although she hides it well
She will someday break
And she will shatter
And her pieces will cut us all
For they are sharp and heavy
Unlike her, so unlike her
So impossible
Take her hand, and guide her through the thorns
For she is so different on the inside
Than what you see through your judgemental eyes